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CJ (Clara) and I ended up getting together.  She and I have been together for over 7 months now.  She was able to get out of the military on time... and we planned things out to where I had her ride to Texas with me... to visit family and grab anything at my mom's that had been waiting for the day I got out... to move out.  Anyhow, after staying there about 2 weeks, we headed for Cincinnati, OH.  Had to stay with her step-mom for a couple weeks while looking around for an apartment to move into.  We found a perfect little place in a nice area... possibly be living here the whole time we're both in college.  We actually getting ready to start college here... Other than that, I need to start looking for a damn job because I basically broke... and feel shitty about having my girl support the both of us right now.

Current Location: my apt in Fairfield, OH
Current Mood: bouncy bouncy
Current Music: HIM- Razorblade Kiss

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well, it might be something good.. it all started with me running into a chick I had went to bootcamp with at the gas chamber while training some punks.  we've been hanging out last couple months.. and there's an attraction on top of this weird connection...as if we've known each other before.  I dunno.  But anyhow, thing was, she had a g/f.  And though her girl was a Marine stationed in Cali, I wanted to respect what they had.  We flirted a lot, sometimes without words.. but I wasn't sure if she was interested or if she's the type to be into "the game."  So, for awhile there, I was keeping my distance...at least emotionally.  Her and her girl had been having probs. and ended up deciding to break it off as of the other day.

Thing is, she's from Ohio.  Though I thought we'd just keep as friends...we've been flirting with the idea of hooking up.  My issue is, I don't wanna hook up if I can't really be with her.  Her step mom n her somehow got on talking about how I should go to school with her in Ohio, since I've always wanted to move back and shit.  But i dunno.  Well see where things go..cuz i get out soon and she just recently had shoulder surgery and will be on medical hold until around April possibly.

Current Mood: contemplative contemplative

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I plan to keep adding little quotes that I like and/or tickle me.


"It's like fate.  Enevitable but always surprising when it happens."

"My love for you is like diarrhea, I can’t hold it in."

"It’s not my fault I fell in love, you’re the one that tripped me!"

"Don’t pee on my leg and tell me it’s raining."

"I’d take a pig to the butcher if I wanted baloney."

"Listening, not imitation, may be the sincerest form of flattery."

"If you can’t excel with talent, triumph with effort."

"You were a rock once, but now you crumble like chalk."

"Vagina hang like sleeve of wizard."

"One must learn to walk before one can learn to run."

"My naked bones are sun bleached and out on display for you."

"At one point in our lives, we forget that our capability to love does not wane when we lose a lover, in fact we become wiser and stronger; and love becomes clearer to us. There is no such thing as forgetting love or to love, only refusing to love or be loved.

"If there’s no wind, row"

"If At First You Don’t Succeed, Maybe You Should Lower Yer Expectations"

"A friend is one who sees through you and still enjoys the view." – Wilma Askinas

The things that will destroy America are prosperity-at-any-price, peace-at-any-price, safety-first instead of duty-first, the love of soft living, and the what’s in it for me theory of life.

- Theodore Roosevelt

Success is one thing you can’t pay for. You buy it on the instalment plan and make payments every day.

If we are to reach real peace in the world we shall have to begin with the children and not by passing fruitless, idealistic resolutions, but by going from love to love and peace to peace, until at last all the corners of the world are covered with that peace and love for which the whole world hungers.
- Mohandas K. Gandhi

Remember, there are no mistakes, only lessons. Love yourself, trust your choices, and everything is possible.
- Cherie Carter-Scott

"The light at the end of the tunnel could mean bad things."

"Even on a cloudy day, the sun still rises."

"Don’t turn back or you’ll miss your next turn."

"The best relationship is one in which your love for each other is greater than your need for each other."

"One who can forgive will be rewarded with inner peace."

"Success is the best revenge."

"Failure is the mother of success."

"Rest is a good thing, but boredom is its brother."

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Queen of Swords

Independence, intelligence, clarity.

Deck: Cagliostro

card art © US Games

Representing the energy of a Queen, this feminine power was traditionally known as a widow, crone or divorcee. In modern times, she can be viewed as a model of self-sufficiency, independence and intelligence. She often has extremely high standards due to her subtle sensitivities, which can be perceived by those around her as being critical or hard to please. Her true motive is to refine the world, to upgrade peoples' understanding -- so that everyone can have the space they need to become fully themselves.

She is not interested in conforming. She is too intelligent to be confined to the role of housewife or nursemaid, although she is perfectly competent in those areas. She chooses her associations (or her solitude), and is seldom caught up in dependent relationships -- at least not for long. Her intelligence is not always the most comfortable to be around, but she can be counted on to see through superficiality and point to the truth of a situation.

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"Isn't it ironic? We ignore those who adore us, adore those who ignore us, love those who hurt us hurt those who love us... "

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You want and expect it all—a lasting connection with someone on every level—mental, emotional, sexual, and spiritual.
  • True Romantics like you are pretty rare. You have a good imagination, which allows you to visualize the type of woman you could fall in love with. You can actually see and feel the future happiness the two of you would share. You also have the patience and persistence to search for her.
  • When you finally meet her, the attraction can be instant and overwhelming. True Romantics believe in destiny, but you’re also willing to give fate a push in the right direction. If necessary, you’ll even make a total fool of yourself to win her over. Romantics know that falling in love often means falling flat on your face.
  • Still, if the two of you can connect, you’ll have the capacity to experience the type of love most people only dream about. Specifically, your "style" of loving appears to have these common features:
  • You’re most likely to fall in love with a woman who is independent by nature. She won’t expect to merge her life with yours. Keeping separate friends, for example, will just give you more to talk about when you’re together.
  • A good sexual connection is also important, but intense sexual passion tends to wane over time. Eventually, affection and companionship are as (if not more) important as good sex.
  • Both partners have to decide when they’re ready to make a commitment. You have to be sensitive to each other’s needs. One shouldn’t be kept waiting indefinitely, nor should the other feel rushed. The two of you have to agree on the level of commitment that makes sense given your feelings and how long you’ve been together.

Staying balanced and well-rounded
  • Equalizers like you are the most balanced and well rounded of the personality types.
  • You have an interesting mixture of traits that complement each other. For example, you have big dreams and ambitions, but when you need to, you can make realistic and practical decisions. So in contrast to many people who have a rigid way of thinking, feeling, or acting, you instinctively adjust your style to fit the situation.
  • Another driver of your unique combination of traits is the fact that you can play different roles depending on the situation. You can be outgoing and funny at a party on Friday night and then enjoy reading a book or watching a DVD alone on Saturday night. It’s as if you try to avoid letting any one side of yourself get too extreme or get too much attention.
  • Of course, there may be areas of your life where the middle ground doesn’t work. For example, your organization skills and focus are about average for someone your age. However, depending on how detail-oriented your job is, you may need to be more extreme in your organizational habits in order to thrive in your career.
  • On the positive side, as an Equalizer, you have the potential to serve as a bridge between very different types of people. You probably already do this in your network of very diverse friends. You could potentially do the same for your community or at work. In a way, you can serve as a translator between people who approach planning, decisions, and conflicts from different mindsets and emotional styles. You already do a great job mediating these different voices within yourself!

Current Mood: calm calm

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do you see me hanging on to every word you say?

you were mindboggling
you were intense
you were uncomfortable in your own skin
you were thirsty but mostly
you were beautiful

oh, your gaze is dangerous
and you fill your space so sweet
if i let you get too close
you'll set your spell on me
so darlin' i just wanna say
just in case i don't come through
i was on to every play
i just wanted you

Current Mood: curious curious

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Well, fuuuuuuck!  Yesterday I got my wisdom teeth pulled....all four.  Yippy-fuckin-skippy!  Didn't hurt when they pulled 'em out...and today my mouth don't hurt too bad but that may be because i'm so fuckin' drugged-up.  Anyhow, the girl situation isn't going so well.  Why is it so hard for me to find a nice girl that's pretty interested in me?  Fuck, dude!  I'll tell u what needs to be done...I need to stop bein' so damn shy and retarded.  Yeah, easier said than done.  Part of me says, "fuck it!"  'cause i don't think i really need to get involved with anyone...don't need to get my emotions fucked with more.  Yeah, need to lay off the mushy stuff...Welp, I talk later.  Peace and later on!

Current Mood: anxious anxious

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"No person is your friend who demands your silence or denies your right to grow."

-Alice Walker

Current Mood: calm yes, yes, oh FUCK yes!
Current Music: Maria Carter- Stupidest Girl??

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Found out last night or more like this morning that I'm not a true, good friend.  Apparently, I don't care.  Which is really quite funny because I thought I was caring all this time and tryin' to be nice.  But see, I'm thinking that I don't come off as caring as I really am because I don't care to feel sorry for people anymore.  I don't care to take shit from people.  I don't want drama and sometimes I just get sick of hearing shit...so I just sit back and take the shit...more like ignore the crap. (why I'm not such a good friend...because I won't even hear her out)  Well, I don't know what to say to her anymore.  She keeps tryin' to bring up shit and acts lik she knows everything and blah, blah, bullshit!  Maybe I am getting to where I don't care...I don't care for her making me feel like I'm in the wrong of things.  Frick her!  I did nothing wrong.  I tried loving her...she wouldn't let it happen and I couldn't fully.  Our relationship was a failure from the start.  How far and where did she think it'd go with the shit she was giving me?  She talks like she's such a great chic now.  Hmm...FUNNY, I don't see a change in her.  She bitches about me not even ever giving her a chance to be herself...well, NEWSFLASH, I couldn't even be MYSELF around her.  Seriously, frick her and her frickin' shit.  She don't understand me and I don't get her...I except that and I wish she could just except it too, that things aren't gonna ever be all GRAND between us.

Current Mood: aggravated aggravated

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